Saturday, June 28, 2008
Saturday, June 21, 2008
3 things on my to do list today
1. Pack the girls for a week with my mom and step-dad
2. Feed the Sampson's frog and water their flowers
3. Mow the lawn
3 snacks I enjoy
1. All natural fruit leather (apricot is my fav.)
2. Hostess cupcakes
3. Red Vines
3 places I've lived
1. Boston, Mass (go red sox!)
2. Fargo, ND (ugh....)
3. Provo, UT
3 things people don't know about me
1. I hate pickles, even the smell makes me queezy
2. Alka seltzer makes me throw up
3. I was arrested once, that's all I'll say about that.
Since I just recently tagged, I'm not going to tag this time but definitely do this if you need something to post and just say that I tagged you!
Tuesday, June 17, 2008
I'm telling ya, I was in the shade most of the day with a sweatshirt and a blanket. I seriously don't know how this happened. My friends that hung out with me didn't look like this. There was no amount of cover up that could fix it so I went to church looking ridiculous. People think I went snow skiing, which is totally possible because it snowed in the mountains last week!
Here she is performing as one of the "good fairies" during our rendition of "Little Bunny Foo Foo" She was born to play that part.
(Oh and I was so crazy busy trying to get out the door, I forgot to change my shoes...nice flip flops huh.)
My two kids riding their bikes....look closely at Eden, she is on two wheels!!!!!
Guess who taught her....not me, not Aric and not Maya....my six year old niece Mari taught her! I was so not looking forward to those lessons. Maya didn't learn until she was 6 1/2, it was so painful to teach her. And now Little Miss Four Year Old is taking it to the streets.
...I don't think so.
Sunday, June 15, 2008
Today I honor Aric, the father of my children.
He has shown me what it would have been like to have the best dad in the world. Everyday I watch him with our children I see what I missed. But then again, I also see what I did right. I refused to settle when it came to finding the father of my children. I made sure I got it right so that my kids would have it right. Here is what they got...
A dad who will sit through Princesses on Ice, High School Musical, Annie and listen to the Wicked soundtrack over and over again...just to name a few very unmanly things we put him through on a regular basis.
A dad who will blow dry their hair and even attempt to put in pony tails.
A dad who will rearrange his work schedule to be at soccer games, school functions, piano and dance recitals.
A dad who tells them they are beautiful every single day and tucks them in every single night with a hug and a kiss, and a jump on the bed.
A dad who will give them a priesthood blessing at the drop of a hat when they need one.
A dad who will always be there to love them, watch over them and protect them.
This is the father of my children. This is why I celebrate father's day.
Thursday, June 12, 2008
Fast forward nine years, six bosses, three houses and two kids later...we are still committed to the gospel, we are still praying everyday and we are still into each other...each others business that is and instead of being crazy in love, we mostly drive each other crazy but we are definitely still in love...most days.
I wanted our first song to be "We are in love" by Harry Connick Jr, but Aric thought it was too cheesy and besides that Aric doesn't fast dance. We went with "And I love her" by The Beatles. I picked it out, Aric went along with it, mainly because we couldn't agree on any other song and we both liked the Beatles. Plus my Uncle Al, who happened to be our Bishop at the time, is a die hard Beatles fan and we knew it would make him happy.
"...Bright are the stars that shine, dark is the sky, I know this love of my will never die...and I love her. A love like ours will never die, as long as I have you near me..."
Nine years later I still love that song and it makes me all warm and fuzzy when I hear it. But now that I really know Aric and he really knows me, this song by Sara McLachlan says it all. It is called Push. I tried desperately to put this on my playlist but I couldn't find it anywhere. (Except on youtube playing as a video of "House and Cameron" played in the background. If it would have been Jack and Kate from Lost maybe I would have posted it) Here are the beautiful words.
"Every time I look at you the world just melts away. All my troubles all my fears dissolve in your affections. You've seen me at my weakest but you take me as I am. And when I fall you offer me a softer place to land.
[ CHORUS ] You stay the course you hold the line you keep it all together. You're the one true thing I know I can believe in. You're all the things that I desire, you save me, you complete me. You're the one true thing I know I can believe in .
I get mad so easy but you give me room to breathe. No matter what I say or do 'cause you're to good to fight about it. Even when I have to push just to see how far you'll go, you won't stoop down to battle but you never turn to go.
Love is just the antidote, when nothing else can cure me. There are times I can't decide when I can't tell up from down, You make me feel less crazy when otherwise I'd drown. But you pick me up and brush me off and tell me I'm OK. Sometimes that's just what we need to get us through the day."
So here's to you Aric. The poor soul who got stuck with me forever. Thank you for staying the course, keeping me all together and being a soft place for me to land. Thank you for saving me and taking me as I am. Above all thank you for loving me on my worst days and giving me my best days.
Happy Anniversary, I love you and I'll try really hard not to push you too far today.
Tuesday, June 10, 2008
I would find myself totally neglecting the house and my family. I would stay up late working on this stuff and would be so dead tired the next day, I could barely get Maya off to school. After awhile I decided that it was no different than my first trimester when I was pregnant with my girls. So I just tried to remember that all these headaches and frustrations of getting approved was my morning sickness and insomnia....first trimester issues.
Our caseworker has really worked hard for us and I know it's because he has felt the spirit too. I seemed to be calling him, emailing him or stopping in his office on a regular basis, so maybe he just wanted me off his back, in any case, he made it happen. I would hand deliver any form he needed because I didn't want to waste even a day sending it by mail. I still can't believe it. It is still sinking in. We are actually going to have a baby! I don't know when, sometime in the next year we hope. But after three years of trying and dealing with all the heartache that goes along with it, I can handle sitting around waiting for a phone call. And let's face it, I won't be sitting around at all. I've got a nursery to decorate!!!!! WHOOO HOOO!!!!!!
So if you would like to check our profiles out, we have two of them, you can go to http://www.aricandjessica.weebly.com/ or go to http://www.ldsfamilyservices.com/ look under AricAndJessica E50. The LDS website will hopefully have our profile updated tomorrow. Please be sure to pass on the info, especially if you happen to know a baby in need of a fabulous family.
THANK YOU for all of your love and support. I know the journey is far from over but at least we are finally in the game! I know there are some of you out there who are dealing with the infertility and adoption rollercoaster, I am so touched by your courage and strength. Your courage and strength has helped me get this far in our journey and I know I will continue to lean on it during my times of discouragement. And a special SHOUT OUT to the rest of you incredible people that I call family and friends. Your love and support has sustained us this far and we are grateful for all of your prayers. I have felt those prayers lift me, carry me and push me. I am truly humbled by the people that the Lord has put in my life.