Nine Years and Forever to Go!

Nine years ago today at roughly 10am I was in the Chicago Illinois LDS temple, promising to be Aric's wife for time and all eternity. I have to be honest, I had no idea what I was getting myself into. Looking back it is scary to think about how little I really knew Aric and how little he really knew me. We had only dated about three months when he proposed and six months later we were married. Thankfully we were both committed to the gospel of Jesus Christ and we were very prayerful when made this humongous decision, it didn't hurt that we were totally into each other and crazy in love.

Fast forward nine years, six bosses, three houses and two kids later...we are still committed to the gospel, we are still praying everyday and we are still into each other...each others business that is and instead of being crazy in love, we mostly drive each other crazy but we are definitely still in love...most days.

I wanted our first song to be "We are in love" by Harry Connick Jr, but Aric thought it was too cheesy and besides that Aric doesn't fast dance. We went with "And I love her" by The Beatles. I picked it out, Aric went along with it, mainly because we couldn't agree on any other song and we both liked the Beatles. Plus my Uncle Al, who happened to be our Bishop at the time, is a die hard Beatles fan and we knew it would make him happy.

"...Bright are the stars that shine, dark is the sky, I know this love of my will never die...and I love her. A love like ours will never die, as long as I have you near me..."

Very sweet, very mushy. But our love was very new and it was kind of all about the girl. How self centered of me! And even though it is a beautiful song I don't think it totally refects our personalities. But it is still our song. (You can find it on our playlist below, it's after this song)

Nine years later I still love that song and it makes me all warm and fuzzy when I hear it. But now that I really know Aric and he really knows me, this song by Sara McLachlan says it all. It is called Push. I tried desperately to put this on my playlist but I couldn't find it anywhere. (Except on youtube playing as a video of "House and Cameron" played in the background. If it would have been Jack and Kate from Lost maybe I would have posted it) Here are the beautiful words.

"Every time I look at you the world just melts away. All my troubles all my fears dissolve in your affections. You've seen me at my weakest but you take me as I am. And when I fall you offer me a softer place to land.

[ CHORUS ] You stay the course you hold the line you keep it all together. You're the one true thing I know I can believe in. You're all the things that I desire, you save me, you complete me. You're the one true thing I know I can believe in .

I get mad so easy but you give me room to breathe. No matter what I say or do 'cause you're to good to fight about it. Even when I have to push just to see how far you'll go, you won't stoop down to battle but you never turn to go.

Love is just the antidote, when nothing else can cure me. There are times I can't decide when I can't tell up from down, You make me feel less crazy when otherwise I'd drown. But you pick me up and brush me off and tell me I'm OK. Sometimes that's just what we need to get us through the day."

So here's to you Aric. The poor soul who got stuck with me forever. Thank you for staying the course, keeping me all together and being a soft place for me to land. Thank you for saving me and taking me as I am. Above all thank you for loving me on my worst days and giving me my best days.

Happy Anniversary, I love you and I'll try really hard not to push you too far today.